Saturday, July 30, 2011
A Vision for Thieves
Blueberries
by Robert Frost
"You ought to have seen what I saw on my way
To the village, through Mortenson's pasture to-day:
Blueberries as big as the end of your thumb,
Real sky-blue, and heavy, and ready to drum
In the cavernous pail of the first one to come!
And all ripe together, not some of them green
And some of them ripe! You ought to have seen!"
"I don't know what part of the pasture you mean."
"You know where they cut off the woods--let me see--
It was two years ago--or no!--can it be
No longer than that?--and the following fall
The fire ran and burned it all up but the wall."
"Why, there hasn't been time for the bushes to grow.
That's always the way with the blueberries, though:
There may not have been the ghost of a sign
Of them anywhere under the shade of the pine,
But get the pine out of the way, you may burn
The pasture all over until not a fern
Or grass-blade is left, not to mention a stick,
And presto, they're up all around you as thick
And hard to explain as a conjuror's trick."
"It must be on charcoal they fatten their fruit.
I taste in them sometimes the flavour of soot.
And after all really they're ebony skinned:
The blue's but a mist from the breath of the wind,
A tarnish that goes at a touch of the hand,
And less than the tan with which pickers are tanned."
"Does Mortenson know what he has, do you think?"
"He may and not care and so leave the chewink
To gather them for him--you know what he is.
He won't make the fact that they're rightfully his
An excuse for keeping us other folk out."
"I wonder you didn't see Loren about."
"The best of it was that I did. Do you know,
I was just getting through what the field had to show
And over the wall and into the road,
When who should come by, with a democrat-load
Of all the young chattering Lorens alive,
But Loren, the fatherly, out for a drive."
"He saw you, then? What did he do? Did he frown?"
"He just kept nodding his head up and down.
You know how politely he always goes by.
But he thought a big thought--I could tell by his eye--
Which being expressed, might be this in effect:
'I have left those there berries, I shrewdly suspect,
To ripen too long. I am greatly to blame.'"
"He's a thriftier person than some I could name."
"He seems to be thrifty; and hasn't he need,
With the mouths of all those young Lorens to feed?
He has brought them all up on wild berries, they say,
Like birds. They store a great many away.
They eat them the year round, and those they don't eat
They sell in the store and buy shoes for their feet."
"Who cares what they say? It's a nice way to live,
Just taking what Nature is willing to give,
Not forcing her hand with harrow and plow."
"I wish you had seen his perpetual bow--
And the air of the youngsters! Not one of them turned,
And they looked so solemn-absurdly concerned."
"I wish I knew half what the flock of them know
Of where all the berries and other things grow,
Cranberries in bogs and raspberries on top
Of the boulder-strewn mountain, and when they will crop.
I met them one day and each had a flower
Stuck into his berries as fresh as a shower;
Some strange kind--they told me it hadn't a name."
"I've told you how once not long after we came,
I almost provoked poor Loren to mirth
By going to him of all people on earth
To ask if he knew any fruit to be had
For the picking. The rascal, he said he'd be glad
To tell if he knew. But the year had been bad.
There had been some berries--but those were all gone.
He didn't say where they had been. He went on:
'I'm sure--I'm sure'--as polite as could be.
He spoke to his wife in the door, 'Let me see,
Mame, we don't know any good berrying place?'
It was all he could do to keep a straight face.
"If he thinks all the fruit that grows wild is for him,
He'll find he's mistaken. See here, for a whim,
We'll pick in the Mortensons' pasture this year.
We'll go in the morning, that is, if it's clear,
And the sun shines out warm: the vines must be wet.
It's so long since I picked I almost forget
How we used to pick berries: we took one look round,
Then sank out of sight like trolls underground,
And saw nothing more of each other, or heard,
Unless when you said I was keeping a bird
Away from its nest, and I said it was you.
'Well, one of us is.' For complaining it flew
Around and around us. And then for a while
We picked, till I feared you had wandered a mile,
And I thought I had lost you. I lifted a shout
Too loud for the distance you were, it turned out,
For when you made answer, your voice was as low
As talking--you stood up beside me, you know."
"We sha'n't have the place to ourselves to enjoy--
Not likely, when all the young Lorens deploy.
They'll be there to-morrow, or even to-night.
They won't be too friendly--they may be polite--
To people they look on as having no right
To pick where they're picking. But we won't complain.
You ought to have seen how it looked in the rain,
The fruit mixed with water in layers of leaves,
Like two kinds of jewels, a vision for thieves."
Friday, July 29, 2011
We've Stayed Home A Lot
"I should like to spend the whole of my life traveling, if I could anywhere borrow another life to live at home."
We've made a few local discoveries this summer as we've really stayed close to home. Gas prices are up and so as we struggle to get our debt load under control, we've enjoyed most of the summer exploring more "local" options. One of them is this cool bridge (video is two minutes long, so I understand if you don't want to watch the whole thing unless you're interested in eavesdropping on our riveting, intimate family conversations *cough cough*):
After hearing lots of fun things about it, we finally paid a visit on Tuesday night. It was well worth the 1/2 mile walk from the closest parking lot to the bridge. Absolutely amazing during the day. Magical at night.
We've made a few local discoveries this summer as we've really stayed close to home. Gas prices are up and so as we struggle to get our debt load under control, we've enjoyed most of the summer exploring more "local" options. One of them is this cool bridge (video is two minutes long, so I understand if you don't want to watch the whole thing unless you're interested in eavesdropping on our riveting, intimate family conversations *cough cough*):
After hearing lots of fun things about it, we finally paid a visit on Tuesday night. It was well worth the 1/2 mile walk from the closest parking lot to the bridge. Absolutely amazing during the day. Magical at night.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
When You Were a Little Boy
"I love holding your hand, Gavyn," says Daddy.
"I love holding your hand, too, Daddy," replies Gavyn.
*pause*
"Why, yes, Gavyn, I did," replies Daddy with a reflective smile, "Yes, I did."
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Meanwhile, Back at the Ranch
My first triathlon in six years went something like this:
1) Checked into the Super 8.
2) Found a place for sphaghetti. I'd heard carb loading was a myth, but I was hungry and it was the only thing I knew worked, so I went with it. Ate early at 5 p.m. to leave time for digestion (didn't work!).
3) Went on an evening cruise around the lake on the Queen.
4) Early to bed (9 p.m.! a record!) to try and get some sleep before the big race.
5) Had a good solid sleep despite waking up every hour on the hour until 5 a.m.
6) Dressed for the race and headed out into the heavy morning air. Humidity and heat were so high there was a dense fog and condensation on the windshield. I had to put the heat on to get it to evaporate.
7) Admired the full moon.
8) Socialized over bug spray for swarming mosquitos as we set up our transition areas in the early dawn hours.
9) Joined fellow triathletes in cheering on the marathon runners as they started out of the gates running up the hill alongside our transition area.
10) Chatter with new and old triathlon friends and butterflies go from fluttering to full on swirling.
11) Pull a innertube bike tire out of my bag for a fellow triathlete with a broken stem/flat.
12) Find my place in line at the porta potties hoping for success in a last ditch effort to unload the previous evenings dinner. No luck!
13) Mentally kick myself for not bringing my energy pre-workout drink and agonize over whether or not I should try to eat anything or not. Decide empty stomach is the way to go.
14) Start the long process of putting on my wetsuit. I had forgotten how that is essentially a workout before the triathlon even begins.
15) Hold goggles and swim caps for some friends as we walk to the lake front for a warm up swim as they struggle into their full sleeve wetsuits. Secretly am thankful for mine with no sleeves.
16) Wade into the cold water and swim a few strokes out to the buoy and back.
17) Try not to be irritated my swim goggles are fogging up as we wait for the men's start - first wave.
18) Take advice from Kecia about spitting in the lenses, rinsing it in the water, and putting them back on. Whadda ya know? It worked!
19) Try not to grin too big as the pre-race excitement starts to build.
20) And they're off! Lots of clapping and cheering as the men head out, and the women take their place at the lake front. White swim caps everywhere. Excitement still building.
21) Five minutes later, it's our turn. I wait for the leading ladies to take off and then start in. The water is cold, but feels good on my face. The breathing feels good.
22) Suddenly find myself starting and stopping. Flying limbs everywhere and I'm trying to avoid them. I maybe should have placed myself more in the middle of the pack.
23) Get out of sync and start to tire. Know full well I'm expending way too much energy. Have visions of drowning. Roll over on my back and try to catch my breath. Panic attack sets in.
24) Roll back over and try to get into a rythym again. Still out of breath. Roll over and do side stroke
.
25) Make my way towards the rope with the innertubes and climb up on one of them to rest. Completely out of breath. Mad. Disheartened. Frustrated with myself.
26) Talk to the diver directly across from me who asks if I'm ok. Rest for a few minutes and start back in again.
27) Fight with another gentleman for the innertubes every 50 feet.
28) Continue this cycle all the way out to the big orange ball/turn around point (it's an out and back swim).
29) Panic attack has left. Rythym is back. Have a good solid swim back to shore. But, alas, it's too late. I'm behind the rest of the pack and will spend the rest of the time playing "catch up". Swim and transition 1 take me a total of 34 something.
30) I'm not the last bike in the transition area, but it's looking pretty lonely. Struggle to get my helmet on and run my bike out.
31) Hop on, hunker down, and pedal madly out of the park and onto the road while squeezing a cinnamon apple flavored energy gel in my mouth. Work through that, a bottle of water and a bottle of watered down Gatorade on my way around the lake.
32) Have a good strong bike (for me)... average about 18.5 mph (was aiming for 20). Finish 188th out of 287 finishers.
33) Quads are burning. Squeeze down another energy gel as I pedal into the transition area.
34) Transition two is easy for me. I feel everything going smoothly. I feel strong. I have my bike shoes off and my run shoes on in no time. Helmet and bike are on the rack. Push out and up the hill. Legs feel wooden and feet feel like lead. Heavy. But still finished 117th out of 287 finishers in transition 2.
35) Feel strong. Cheer on the runners who are looping their way back to the finish. Feel slightly envious they are almost done.
36) Follow runners as the run course winds through the backstreets on the north and east side of the lake... through shaded, lake side cottage dotted neighborhoods.
37) Halfway through, I spy a park with a restroom. The big W on the front calls to me. I need a potty break, bad. Do I push through and suffer back to the finish line or take a break and enjoy the rest of my run? Common sense prevails. I am in no danger of winning. I choose comfort. This maybe adds two minutes to my run time.
38) The end appears quicker than I expect it to. In true triathlete fashion, fellow triathletes who are already finish, encourage me down the last stretch. Only 50 yards. Only 50 feet.
39) I round the corner for the finish and sprint the last stretch. Too much gas. I didn't push myself hard enough, apparently. Find out later, the run was one mile shorter than anticipated. No wonder. About a 10.5 minute mile. Not stellar. Not bad. 184th out of 287 finishers.
40) Smile as I cross the finish. Feel like throwing up for the second time ever in all the years I've raced. Double over with hands on knees and try to catch my breath.
It might not have been what I wanted. It might not have been pretty. But I didn't drown. And I didn't get a flat tire. And my IT band didn't tighten on me. And I finished. I'll take it. Success!
1) Checked into the Super 8.
2) Found a place for sphaghetti. I'd heard carb loading was a myth, but I was hungry and it was the only thing I knew worked, so I went with it. Ate early at 5 p.m. to leave time for digestion (didn't work!).
3) Went on an evening cruise around the lake on the Queen.
4) Early to bed (9 p.m.! a record!) to try and get some sleep before the big race.
5) Had a good solid sleep despite waking up every hour on the hour until 5 a.m.
6) Dressed for the race and headed out into the heavy morning air. Humidity and heat were so high there was a dense fog and condensation on the windshield. I had to put the heat on to get it to evaporate.
7) Admired the full moon.
8) Socialized over bug spray for swarming mosquitos as we set up our transition areas in the early dawn hours.
9) Joined fellow triathletes in cheering on the marathon runners as they started out of the gates running up the hill alongside our transition area.
10) Chatter with new and old triathlon friends and butterflies go from fluttering to full on swirling.
11) Pull a innertube bike tire out of my bag for a fellow triathlete with a broken stem/flat.
12) Find my place in line at the porta potties hoping for success in a last ditch effort to unload the previous evenings dinner. No luck!
13) Mentally kick myself for not bringing my energy pre-workout drink and agonize over whether or not I should try to eat anything or not. Decide empty stomach is the way to go.
14) Start the long process of putting on my wetsuit. I had forgotten how that is essentially a workout before the triathlon even begins.
15) Hold goggles and swim caps for some friends as we walk to the lake front for a warm up swim as they struggle into their full sleeve wetsuits. Secretly am thankful for mine with no sleeves.
16) Wade into the cold water and swim a few strokes out to the buoy and back.
17) Try not to be irritated my swim goggles are fogging up as we wait for the men's start - first wave.
18) Take advice from Kecia about spitting in the lenses, rinsing it in the water, and putting them back on. Whadda ya know? It worked!
19) Try not to grin too big as the pre-race excitement starts to build.
20) And they're off! Lots of clapping and cheering as the men head out, and the women take their place at the lake front. White swim caps everywhere. Excitement still building.
21) Five minutes later, it's our turn. I wait for the leading ladies to take off and then start in. The water is cold, but feels good on my face. The breathing feels good.
22) Suddenly find myself starting and stopping. Flying limbs everywhere and I'm trying to avoid them. I maybe should have placed myself more in the middle of the pack.
23) Get out of sync and start to tire. Know full well I'm expending way too much energy. Have visions of drowning. Roll over on my back and try to catch my breath. Panic attack sets in.
24) Roll back over and try to get into a rythym again. Still out of breath. Roll over and do side stroke
.
25) Make my way towards the rope with the innertubes and climb up on one of them to rest. Completely out of breath. Mad. Disheartened. Frustrated with myself.
26) Talk to the diver directly across from me who asks if I'm ok. Rest for a few minutes and start back in again.
27) Fight with another gentleman for the innertubes every 50 feet.
28) Continue this cycle all the way out to the big orange ball/turn around point (it's an out and back swim).
29) Panic attack has left. Rythym is back. Have a good solid swim back to shore. But, alas, it's too late. I'm behind the rest of the pack and will spend the rest of the time playing "catch up". Swim and transition 1 take me a total of 34 something.
30) I'm not the last bike in the transition area, but it's looking pretty lonely. Struggle to get my helmet on and run my bike out.
31) Hop on, hunker down, and pedal madly out of the park and onto the road while squeezing a cinnamon apple flavored energy gel in my mouth. Work through that, a bottle of water and a bottle of watered down Gatorade on my way around the lake.
32) Have a good strong bike (for me)... average about 18.5 mph (was aiming for 20). Finish 188th out of 287 finishers.
33) Quads are burning. Squeeze down another energy gel as I pedal into the transition area.
34) Transition two is easy for me. I feel everything going smoothly. I feel strong. I have my bike shoes off and my run shoes on in no time. Helmet and bike are on the rack. Push out and up the hill. Legs feel wooden and feet feel like lead. Heavy. But still finished 117th out of 287 finishers in transition 2.
35) Feel strong. Cheer on the runners who are looping their way back to the finish. Feel slightly envious they are almost done.
36) Follow runners as the run course winds through the backstreets on the north and east side of the lake... through shaded, lake side cottage dotted neighborhoods.
37) Halfway through, I spy a park with a restroom. The big W on the front calls to me. I need a potty break, bad. Do I push through and suffer back to the finish line or take a break and enjoy the rest of my run? Common sense prevails. I am in no danger of winning. I choose comfort. This maybe adds two minutes to my run time.
38) The end appears quicker than I expect it to. In true triathlete fashion, fellow triathletes who are already finish, encourage me down the last stretch. Only 50 yards. Only 50 feet.
39) I round the corner for the finish and sprint the last stretch. Too much gas. I didn't push myself hard enough, apparently. Find out later, the run was one mile shorter than anticipated. No wonder. About a 10.5 minute mile. Not stellar. Not bad. 184th out of 287 finishers.
40) Smile as I cross the finish. Feel like throwing up for the second time ever in all the years I've raced. Double over with hands on knees and try to catch my breath.
It might not have been what I wanted. It might not have been pretty. But I didn't drown. And I didn't get a flat tire. And my IT band didn't tighten on me. And I finished. I'll take it. Success!
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, the boys are sleeping in, eating Fruit Loops and watching cartoons. At least they were happy to see me when I got back.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Chasing Fireflies
One of my favorite parts of summer is the magic of fireflies. They have been in abundance this year. I enjoyed seeing them light up the cornfields with their flashes one evening as we drove through the countryside. There must have been thousands of them... several flashing every second. Lighting the night with their golden glow. What's your favorite magic of summer?
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Bingo!
Gavyn's seal of approval these days is a cheesy grin and thumbs up. Sometimes with an added "Bingo!" for good measure. Thumbs up = bingo. I have no idea why. You'll have to ask him. "Gavyn, how is your chocolate ice cream cone with sprinkles?"
Gavyn, how's the water? Do you like swimming in a lake?"
| Bingo! |
| Double bingo! |
I love the enthusiasm of a five-year-old. Sometimes life tries to beat it out of us, but I'm thankful my children are helping me relearn how to enjoy it. How's my life, you ask? Double bingo!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Ain't That the Truth
Ain't that the truth. I woke up from July 4th and it's July 12th? Wha'? July is half over already? My race schedule for the month changed. I skipped out on the July 4th run and went to Panera Bread for breakfast with the boys instead. There we were waited on by one of their favorite babysitters, Katie. Kekoa stood and stared at her while she waited on customers. I don't think she knew quite what to do, where to look or what to think with such an attentive little cowboy giving her the stare down.
I ran Midnight Madness again this year. So did the boys. They looked so cute running their hearts out... capes flying. The 10k about did me in. I ran somewhere between an 8.5 and 9 minute mile - 54 somethin'. Official results haven't been posted yet. Heat and humidity are always factors in this race. Even at 7:30 and 8:30 at night. I have never felt like I was going to throw up at the end of a race before. There's always a first time for everything.
My triathlon is this weekend. I'm nervous. And I'm thinking, Shannon, that I won't be able to join you for the Warrior Dash this year. Count me in for next year, though. I want one of those viking hats so bad I can taste it.
I ran Midnight Madness again this year. So did the boys. They looked so cute running their hearts out... capes flying. The 10k about did me in. I ran somewhere between an 8.5 and 9 minute mile - 54 somethin'. Official results haven't been posted yet. Heat and humidity are always factors in this race. Even at 7:30 and 8:30 at night. I have never felt like I was going to throw up at the end of a race before. There's always a first time for everything.
My triathlon is this weekend. I'm nervous. And I'm thinking, Shannon, that I won't be able to join you for the Warrior Dash this year. Count me in for next year, though. I want one of those viking hats so bad I can taste it.
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Monday, July 4, 2011
Cowboys Never Quit
Kekoa rode his "horse" - new Spiderman bike - down to the Fourth of July parade today. As he madly pedaled to keep ahead of Daddy, he looked back and said, "You know what, Daddy?" "What, Kekoa?" answered Daddy. "Cowboys never quit," he shared with a grin... then turned around, hunkered over his handlebars and pedaled like mad. It doesn't get anymore American than that. Happy 4th of July, everyone!
Saturday, July 2, 2011
What Seven Looks Like
When Kekoa was a baby, Craig and I used to sit and watch him and wonder out loud to each other about what he was going to look like as a little boy. At the same time, I would cry because my baby was growing up too fast. Too quickly he lost his newborn cry. (It's different than a baby cry. It really is. A newborn cry in a store always captures my attention.) Too quickly he was rolling over. Too quickly he was sitting up on his own. Too quickly he was army crawling his way across the floor. Too quickly, he was pulling himself up on furniture and "cruising" around the room. Too soon he was staggering to his feet and toddling around the house. And then one day, I woke up and I had a seven-year-old. Somewhere along the way, he started saying "Look at what I can do, Mom!" Somehow I ended up with a little boy who can ride a bike. And tie his shoes. And read me books. Somewhere along the way, he lost his baby fat and his baby looks. Somehow he got "leggy" and turned into a little boy. Thankfully, he still has a little bit of his baby look left, but I'm quite certain it's not going to last long. Another baby I knew, our very first nephew, turned thirteen on the first. And really, I'm still getting over the shock of how quickly that happened, too. But on Saturday, July 2nd, we discovered what seven looks like on our little boy. Happy Birthday, Kekoa! Seven looks good on you.
Friday, July 1, 2011
My Boys Are Good to Me
They asked me to be in a picture with them. Kekoa picked out my outfit. He calls it, my "princess" dress. When he came down for breakfast the morning of the pictures and saw me all dressed up, he beamed. "Mommy, you wore what I picked out for you," he said appreciatively. That followed by "you look beautiful, mommy". My heart went pitter patter pitter. It's hard not to feel good about yourself when you've got little boys in the house that tell you things like that. Of course, the other one is still threatening to run away. "I'm leaving this house at 3 a.m." Gavyn informed me the other day. This just a few days after he started packing his bags for the first time. I casually mentioned that I hoped it didn't thunder and lightning while he was away. A few seconds later, the pajamas he was stuffing into his bag were being stuffed back in his pajama drawer. Because, well, we all know that the only thing you really need when running away from home is all the pajamas in your pajama drawer.
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